Hawaii

I recently spent a week in Hawaii with the person that is "in order". Things went great and I was shown a great time. While en route to Hawaii, while in Atlanta, I spoke on the phone with the person that is "not in order" and he told me that things he said in the past were just dreams that he sold to me. That statement tore me apart and I justified my trip and really looked forward to enjoying myself and seeing what the "better" life is like. I don't know why, but it is so hard to let go and he knows how to get the best of me. I promised myself that it was the last time he would make me cry. I could not believe I was crying in front of everyone in the airport! Well, to say the least, I had a great time in Hawaii. I visited the Polynesian Cultural Center, took a submarine ride 120 ft deep into the Pacific, watched the sunset on Waikiki Beach, and ate at the finest restaurants. I must say, I will always remember this trip for as long as I live. I felt very fortunate to have a friend that was willing to cater to me and to show me a great time. Now that I am back to reality........of course "not in order" apologized and said that he loves me and that no one can change that, yet he still acts the same. I pray to God that he gives me some direction in this situation because it is very stressful and I want to make the right decision. I am getting older and not younger. I know oneday my prayers will be answered and what is meant to be will be. Time will tell.........